I haven't posted one of these since July. Sadly, I do have three unfinished attempts. It is a harsh reality. I love to write. I love to share my ideas. But more than that, I love to do nothing else. There's a lot in my life I wish I did more of. Unfortunately, I have every excuse in the world to why I haven't done any of them.
I am an Aquarian. Among all the stereotypical traits an Aquarian has, I also have the inability to complete anything. I'm an idea guy. I have so many great ideas and so much to share, but I just find every reason to not do it. I try to fix that, but all those efforts end is reason to not to complete them also. I have thought of finishing the three previous attempts to post something to this blog, but while I still think the view expressed in them (or would be expressed) are still valid; the time has past and they are no longer topical.
It's not just this blog. Ten months ago I embarked on a new chapter in my life. I knew it would be hard work, and I knew that I would be required to work beyond the hours I am at the office. I can blame it on the robbery in June of why it's taken me so long to get into that groove again, but the truth is - I would rather do nothing. I'm falling behind. I haven't actually counted, but I have probably eleven projects, where four have deadlines in the next couple weeks, two have past deadlines where I wish I had done better on, and another two that'll probably rear their ugly heads next week.
There have been time in my life that I have come to these points where I have to make an effort to better myself, and this time the focus is being more effective. Effective. A word that has different meanings depending on where you stand in relation of the "effective" person. My family's view of effective-me is different than my work's version of me, but this journey will be based on my internal definition of effective.
So along with spending more time trying to stay a head of the curve at work (at least until I can get that +1 we need to complete our complement), I also plan to devote time to this blog, and actually, probably complete those "novels" I started almost two decades ago. Shit, between Anne Rice and that Twilight abortion, the three vampyre stories I had started would have been a staple in the genre. Heck, I might have prevented that Twilight thing. Anyway, I digress.... Yes, I hope to try really hard to not come up with excuses to not do things, but I also know I'm really good at convincing myself that it's not that important.
So stay tuned. Or maybe expect to be disappointed. I guess will find out together.
