Getting There

So, it's almost June, which means we're at half way to the end of it.  The school year for the kids is over.  They will both be middle schoolers next year, and just down the street from me at that.  The big thing is that my summer will be mostly me working hard during the week and the weekends with the kids.  It's a good thing, although I assume you think it'd impact my social life being as how I plan to have no weekends to me.  Yeah, well, I have discovered that I suck at social now.
Truth be told, I tried dating at the beginning of April and, for the most part, I was unsuccessful.  I have discovered that at my age, I'm basically set in my ways and that most new people I meet are going to eventually annoy me.  Even though I am almost nearing the one month anniversary of not being on Facebook and the three and a half month anniversary of disconnecting from all other social media, I am still yearning...  Well, that's probably not the right word; I mean rather the thing with the social media that I felt I still feel when I look at other people in the physical world.  I still envy others.
Well, I still struggle.  I'm still not the me I need to be.  The me that I have always wanted to be in my life.  I am getting closer.  I have made strides this last month.  Not great strides, but strides.  The last couple weeks I have been solely using my laptop for everything, trying to get used to it and making it more familiar to me as I use it.  See, I have always had a laptop and a desktop, with the desktop being the core of what I do and the laptop being the "when I need to use it" device.  Well, I now have a more powerful laptop, so I am trying to become more comfortable with it.  I'm not sure if that makes sense, but it is part of m process.
Money is the other part.  I am less than a week away from possibly starting the first month of getting ahead financially.  Two years of planning, sometimes unsuccessfully, and I could possibly not only break even but surplus in the process.  It's very exciting, but I have to wait until the end of a three day weekend where I will be staying to myself not spending.  Not a negative, just an observation.
But yeah, June.  June will be a positivity.  I'm close.  I can feel it.