A lot has changed since I last posted anything here, yet nothing actually changed. Because of a sense of abandonment, I reached out to a faceless crowd to gather my thoughts. I also passive-aggressively posted some things on Facebook, which, coupled with the auto-share feature of this blog to Facebook, required changes.
We had a conversation that helped me in clearing up some mis-perceptions, and I think helped us understand that neither of us handled the outcome very well. The purposed of this post isn't to go into that, but to apologize for my actions. I cannot take back what I posted or shared (I can delete them, but the message was conveyed), but I have taken steps to heal what I've done and myself in the process. This post won't make its way to Facebook via the auto-share function for two reasons. One, the simplest, I turned that off. The second, I severed myself from my Facebook-world.
Basically, if you're a Facebook friend of mine and you're reading this, two things have happened. You realized that I am missing from Facebook. You're actually reading this because you sought it out. I mentioned in that last post that it was the equivalent of writing my mom a letter and then burning it. While a lot of me wanted to just vent to the internet-ether, apparently part of me wanted sympathy. I got it, and I appreciated the attention; but it was all based on a dual-misunderstanding caused by the unfortunate reactions between two people.
I can't face my life without her, and a failed communication thrust me into despair that this was what was happening. I have a lot of work to do to fix myself here, so part of that process was to break away from my Facebook-world and deal with the tangibles right in front of me. So, again, if you're reading this, it's because you came here because you want to be here, and not because I was something to click in a feed.
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