I discovered that today. Actually, I think I've always known that, it's just that today was obvious. I get it that the definition of friends as it applies to us is unique, but it is so hurtfully different that the definition of friends she has for the rest of her friends or that I have for my friends or, for that matter, anyone has for friends.
Nine months will be upon me fast.
Yea, no, today was a hurtful day. I get that the intent is to stay together for the sake of the kids, but a discovery today about last night really cut me deep. It would seem that events with her new friend that was the catalyst for this moment in my life are not to include me and shall now be presented in such a way that I won't have enough information to want go. So, this morning I discover that a mutual friend has a birthday today, and that just happens to be the generic (I assumed) friend that I wouldn't have cared to celebrate her birthday.
So, yea - Along with almost practically not doing anything together and almost exclusively doing stuff instead with friends, we not include not being involved in mutual friend activities. That was actually quite painful, and just another reminder that the longer I cohabitate, the longer I come off as a fool. A stupid stupid fool.
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