So many months

It's been a while since I posted here.  I always mean to, but by the time not-work is over, I'm too tired to do anything else.  It's been pretty much work and kids the last couple months.  I had intended to move out and be on my own by now, but the plans of others got in the way.  That'll be the last time that happened, seeing as how I am very unsatisfied with the results.
I just want to be alone.
That's my current state.  The cat I'm okay with, and the kids.  Every one else can just piss off.  Too many people in the last six months have demonstrated how little I mean to them.  I don't fault them for that.  However, it's made me done being with people.  So many friends giving me advice, and I've learned two things from that.  My friends really don't know me, and their advice is what they want.
So, alone it is.
I'm okay with that.  I mean really.  I promised myself that my last marriage (this one) was the last one - so I'm clearly not looking to get married again.  Like I mentioned above, friends have hurt me in the last six months - so getting close to any one is also out.  Nope; it's pretty much just finish this life (That honestly has gone on longer than I expected) with my kids and cat.
I have five months until my current life on hold can move forward.  I'm excited about that, but the time frame seems so long.  Five more months of living somewhere I don't want to be, driving twice as long I need to, dreading every moment I am here.  Five long months of the constant memories of what I once had, and not being able to move on like everyone else could.  Five months of family get togethers that I've already convinced myself I want nothing to do with.
Five was never a number I considered, but here I am loathing it.  Five months of my live remaining on pause before I am allowed to start the next chapter.  The final chapter.  The one where the hero doesn't need anyone and finally overcomes everything and wins.
Then again, I've learned that tomorrow can muck all that up, and all my plans mean nothing.  So I just observe until it's time to act.